Nanowrimo.

November is a month filled with the smells and tastes of fall. However, for a lot of people, myself included, it is a month filled with writing. Nanowrimo or National Novel Writing Month is an event that takes place all over the world, and people challenge themselves to write a 50 000 word piece of fiction in a month.

I have participated for so many years, but I have never won. But I have never wrote to win. This year, I am participating again. I did think about not participating, but reading about all of my friends planning their novels made me want to join them. So here I am.

The challenge is always a lot of fun, even if I have never won. It's a great way to push yourself, and actually come out with a first draft of a novel. Despite studying journalism, I have always wanted to be a novelist, and that is still the goal. I still want to make a living by writing, but I know that I need a side job.

As well, I want to do a blog post every week updating you with my nanowrimo progress. So on top of all of my other blog posts that I have been working on over the last few months. I'll be adding just a bit about my progress, with probably some tips and tricks along the way.

This years novel is a fantasy novel called All the Shattered Worlds. And is about young Kellan, prince of the fauns, who has become bored, and plain done with his life as a prince. He is forced to sit though boring diplomacy lessons, get married to some faun his parents picked out for him, while outside there is a conspiracy going on. Long extinct creatures are returning to their world, and humans are travelling into faun villages. After sneaking out to follow the humans on his quest for adventure, Kellan learns to be more careful what he wishes for. Trapped in the Lord's castle, Kellan meets Fyn the lords son. Fyn knows nothing outside the castle, and the little he does know is very distorted. It falls upon these two boys to save Kellan's people from human invasions and quest for power.

If you want to be buddies with me you can find me on the nanowrimo website here and search wanderingforestfairy.

I encourage everyone who loves writing to take this challenge. It doesn't matter if you hit the 50 000 words, you have more words than when you started.  I do want to create a secondary challenge for myself through the month of November. So, I am as well posting an image everyday on my instagram dictating my word count, and my goals.

If you are at all interested in seeing my word count, and challenging me to word wars, feel free to follow me @fairyprincebasil on instagram or at basil_boultbee on twitter. Happy writing. 

Writing.

Over the last few weeks, I have found myself missing fictional writing. I used to always have a new idea for a story every few days. I wrote poems, and short stories, and articles, and novels, and plays. I wrote everything. But now, my creativity has been reduced to a blog post once every few days. Don't get me wrong, I love my blog, and I love writing on it, but, it's not the same.

I remember struggling with this last year too. And so in order to help me, I decided to open a figment account. Figment is a place for writers of all kinds to post their works, and get their works read. That didn't last long. I only posted two things. And none of them got read.

However today, I was hit with a desire to write a poem about an issue I have been having in my personal life. And when I finished, I didn't entirely hate it. I actually kind of liked it. So I logged back onto my figment account, and posted it. Then I noticed something. The other two pieces on there were drafts. I never actually published them through the site. So I fixed that.

I want to get back into writing, and this is a good time of year to do it. I will let you know a little bit more about that as it gets closer. I also have an idea for a youtube thing, but I am not going to say anything on it, until I get the equipment, and I know I can keep it up. So, I am hopefully back into writing full swing.

If you do wish to read my stories you can find them here:
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I hope you all have a wonderful day. :)

Dear Suicidal Me.

This post was inspired by a blogger by the name of Courtney. Thank you so much for allowing me to use this idea. World Suicide Prevention day is tomorrow, and I wanted to do something for that day. So here it is: Dear Suicidal Me. A letter to myself when I was at my lowest point.

Dear Suicidal Me,

It truthfully has been a long time since I thought of you. I wish I could think of you more, but sadly, I fear that will turn me back into you. I remember so clearly sitting in my room, in the dark, not feeling a thing. Not sad, not angry, nothing. When I reflect on it, I am terrified of how empty I felt.

But still to this day I wonder where all of those feeling came up. You had everything going for you, friends, a talented partner, parents that sort of accepted who you are. But still, it wasn't enough. You never actively tried to kill yourself. But would it matter if it was an accident?

I remember you stopped eating, stopped sleeping trying to figure out the point to it all. To life, to love, to sunrises and sunsets. Sadly, you came up with an answer that now, I strongly disagree with you on. You decided that there was no point, and the world would go on just as easily without you.

But that cannot be any further from the truth. You have so many adventures ahead of you, you did things that you could never have dreamed of. And for that, I am so proud of you. You went through therapy, took your medications like a champ (even if you do accidentally forget to take your pills to this day) and began recovering.

Suicidal me, you don't exist anymore, or at least, you are not part of all that I am. I will never say that I regret meeting you. You taught me about how strong I can actually be. You make life's challenges so much easier. Because I survived you, I can survive an exchange year, I can survive college, I can survive the real world. So thank you. Please, never fully return, just live as a memory in the back of my mind. A reminder to what rock bottom really is.

Love,
Almost fully recovered Basil.